These past few weeks have been completely exhausting for me. There have been a lot of changes happening in my life (good ones), and they all have been happening back to back. I knew these changes were coming and like normal I did my best to prepare for them. However, even with doing my best to be prepared things still a got little out of control and proved to be a bit overwhelming.
As a result of all the changes that have been happening in my life, I’ve been extremely tired and exhausted, and have barely even been able to find more than 4 hours in the day to rest, sleep, and catch my breath. A couple of days ago I sat down and really took the time to reflect on how well (or poorly) I had been taking care of myself, how present I have been with others, how helpful I may or may not have been for those who may have needed at one time or another. Most importantly I also took the time to reflect on how patient I have been with not only myself, but with everyone else as well.
Using that time to think about all this made me realize something…I hadn’t been doing a good job with taking care of me so that I could present the best of me to others. Instead, I’ve been on autopilot just doing things as they came, but not doing them efficiently, and only giving about 30% of myself to others. This is not who I am, I don’t half-ass things, and knowing that I was not putting my best foot forward left a sour taste in my mouth. [Read more…]